Here I am again! Working! Week 2! Yay! I’m psyching myself up because it’s really a good job and all weekend long I was flip-flopping about how I just couldn’t really handle working again. But I am my own worst enemy because it’s not a horrible job. It’s a good job, and I’d be stupid to toss it aside because I haven’t gotten used it yet.
I need to give myself some time, then I’ll be okay. Why should I deprive myself of the extra income this job gives me just because I’m not used to being at work anymore? I don’t have to work because my husband makes enough to support us both, but I really don’t like sitting around staring at the walls. It’s annoying. Plus, this company took a chance on me knowing that I haven’t worked in seven years, and I’m not gonna turn away that kindness by quitting after a week. Also, I mean, seriously, I have plans. Plans cost money, and money doesn’t grow on trees. Ya gotta earn it. This is probably the best job I’ll ever find and I’m just being a Nervous Nelly. I need to stop doing what I’ve been doing — borrowing trouble from the future: the whole “What if this happens?” thing that people do when they get anxious. I’ll take it one day at a time. That’s the best way, right? ^_^
Ah, I feel better. Now I just have to get over this… problem… I have with phones and making phone calls. ^_^ I’m working on it, but yeah. Again, it’s borrowing trouble with the phones. I have this fear of sounding like a complete idiot over the phone. Just sounding like a complete idiot. And it cripples me sometimes when it comes to making phone calls. So this job isn’t phone heavy, but it does require that I make phone calls. I do okay. I don’t sound like a complete idiot (except the one voicemail), so my fears are unfounded, but! logic plays no part in phobias. Since I’m getting paid to make these phone calls, I make them, and I’m all business-like when I make them. But afterwards, I’m shaky and sooooo glad that’s over. ^_^ Give me email and texting any day of the week. Email is my preference. Ha! Luckily, most of the trades I work with (so far) prefer email and text. So, I’m gonna stop borrowing trouble and deal with the few phone calls I have to make. Eventually, they won’t be a problem at all. I just have to get used to making phone calls again.