I am once again amongst the unemployed and disabled. Being “on” for eight hours a day and not working those full eight hours just drained me too much. The anticipation of waiting for the phone to ring and/or an email to pop up was just too damned stressful. It’s one of the reasons why I stopped working as an admin assistant. Everything was always done by 11am — it didn’t matter what job or company I worked for, I never had an admin job that kept me busy all day… never — and the rest of the day was spent waiting for someone to give me something to do. I couldn’t stand it then, and I couldn’t deal with it now. My mind just isn’t wired for that. It had nothing to do with the company or the work itself. It really was a great job and the work was easy (aside from the phone thing). But being “on” all day and not actually “working” just drained me too much. My health — mental and physical — always comes first. It always has, and it always will.
But, I’m not giving up. I’m sure that somewhere there’s something I can do. I just have to stay away from administrative work. That’s all. There’s millions of jobs out there that aren’t administrative in nature. I’ll betcha I can find something. Eventually. Maybe.